Yearnings

I am fortunate to have been given a book by Christopher Desanti (Urban Mystic), I have been reading bits and bobs from the book. This morning I opened the chapter on yearning and one sentence jumped of the page…. “abundance is here and now but not in the way I had thought it would show up”. This hit me in the face….I have been yearning for success and abundance, which i thought was to come in the form of professional, financial success and fame. The irony of this is that none of this is what I think abundance for me was about. I never had a mother who could take care of me and I do not know who my father is. I can safely say my childhood was very rough around the edges. There was no abundance of family or love. And yet today- I do have an abundance of love… I have love from my family. I have a beautiful wife, amazing kids and acceptable in laws. Everything that i lacked I now have….. amazing how my mind continues to question this and drive for more. More of this and more of that. Sometimes its about stopping and smelling the roses.